You guys have heard me say it a million times: it pays to set your intentions/ write down your vision/speak over your life and dreams.
I'm beyond excited to tell you guys how absolutely thrilling it is to see visions leap off pages and become items in your diary/bank account and phone gallery. I was lecturing and enjoying it. But still there was something that was not fulfilled. I made a plan to move towards that vision in my heart which meant leaving the lecturing job. In all honesty the plan was “leave now,” but that was far from prudent. So I was prepping for another semester. I was not happy but grateful to have a job that I actually enjoyed. One day after the first meeting of the semester I became so anxious about the fact that though enjoyable, this wasn’t the “It” in my head. To defuse some of the anxious energy I began to write a note in my phone. its has become needful for me to write down what I want when the situations of life become the opposite. It’s my way of refraining my reality and reducing anxiety. i wrote down “I want a microphone and an audience.” I knew I had some things to share and it was now becoming a burning desire! It arrested me. If you know me well I won’t have to spend time convincing you that wanting a microphone and an audience has nothing to do with self aggrandizement and every single thing to do with purpose. I eventually crafted the White Lotus Blooms Life Class Series. It was one forum within which I could share. I launched it in March 2018 and it was a powerful event. One of my friends described it as rich and that’s very rewarding for me to hear. I intentioned to have another class in November but it didn’t pan out well. Truth be told I was self-sabotaging. I was scared of failing at this new venture. I was afraid of how I interpreted the numbers and the relationship with people’s interest. As the year end approached I became clear that if 2019 was a repeat of 2018 I wouldn’t make it. Like straight up, there had to be a change and I had to become changed. so I stepped into 2019 before the year even ended. I wrote down my visions boldly. I also wrote a proposal to a prospective sponsor to help me make Life Class a monthly event. I wanted the proposal to be more than just a few pages of text so I decided to ad a video component. I mentioned this goal to Esther while lamenting the fact that I needed a mic and had to delay filming until I got one. Esther advised me that she had 2 mics and brought both of them to loan me. Problem solved! I set up my Tripod and spent hours capturing a 3 minute video. I speak fluently most days but I just couldn’t get my words out in a way that made me feel ‘sensible.’ Fast forward to me producing a video of which I’m still proud. I sent my proposal to the sponsor. I don’t hear back so I followed up (something I didn’t do enough of ). Lo and behold the email landed into my inbox saying “an amount of x has been approved..” life class is scheduled for Saturday February 2, 2019 and is set to become a consistent event!
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AuthorKamala P. McWhinney is God's Idea. I am academic, I am creative,I am dreamer. My name is Hindu for Lotus. Given the beautiful symbolism of the Lotus Flower I have embraced it as a metaphor for my evolving, my surviving and my thriving. Archives
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